Contradictions.

Something that kills you when you have too much of it.... Time
Something that kills you when you don't have too much of it... Money.
The inverse??!!

Following your dreams is supposed to be easy... For some...
Why is it hard for the others though?
Maybe its because of a mistake somebody did ages ago... Why should so many people suffer?
Its kind of scary if you think about it... ONE mistake(?)... Done out of love(apparently)... And you're punished for that?
Wow... That's really sad...

Lets look at the solution...

#1 Suicide.

:O
:)

A personal favorite.
Not enough.
Not fair enough.
Who am I kidding??

#2 An escape plan.

How long?
You know its too late in the future...
:(
You still got a few more years of your life.
Damn it!
It'll be too late for everything you wanna do right NOW.


You know what the worst part is.... You know the only answer is you need to suck it up and wait... and wait.... and wait.... wait.... :|
Plays tricks in your head... in front of your eyes...


#3 Masochism.

Beautiful.
And the scars.
It pushes you away from everybody more than ever...
Holy shit.... I'm talking new levels of loneliness here...
Its like you're in a crowd watching everybody... You only watch, you can't act... You feel a decade older than all the idiotic clowns around you... 18 going on 30 huh... Well its the truth... Funny part is you feel taller as well... XD


#4 Writing.

Temporary.


#5 Real loud music.

Soothing.
Best thing there is.
Gets old soon enough...
Nothing wrong with the music... You just become immune in a while is all...



Conclusion:

Nothing will solve it huh....
Therefore... Receding into your mind and building a wall around yourself is all you can do...
Take nothing seriously... Maybe if you don't feel or see it, it doesn't exist... Maybe it is a nightmare... and you'll just wake up and.. poof... gone....

When my blade is that much closer to my skin I hope you would be that much more farther away... and when I do cut myself I hope you are out of reach and I'll keep loving you from afar....


I feel my twisted scars... Atleast I'm glad that the pain is all mine and none yours...
I wish it were not the case though...


Wishing for nothing but the worst for you....
Predator.

This is me:An anomaly of all sorts, different in the eyes of the average under-developed female mind, Who-knows-what in the eyes of neanderthal male mind. An emobodiment of Pure Rage...

My Birthday 16 / 11 / 2009
I'm 18 now.. an adult.. "major"
Giving me voting rights, license to drink, etc...All I feel is old.. the fact that I've lived for alomst 2 decades on Earth lies heavily in my mind.. Nevertheless, I am happy...The thought that I can choose my own leader is gratifying but not considering my choices...
It started out with me going t0 college... All for my lab attendance.. something that is important to every college student... Alas.. no lab...
Lets look at the gifts..1.The Bible.... Yes people Yours Truly was given the Bible... an excellent book to get explanations for various traditional habits of Man...2.The Ipod Touch... A fascinating creation... Heck.. its a beauty..3.A Sansa mp3 player... Thank you.4.Swimming cap n Goggles... Ditto.. :)
Then I come home, buy myself a veggie burger and fries and go to sleep.. after I'm done with eating that is...
Woe is me...
Boring and monotonous is the world
Grey does it seem
Shit, burger is missing mayonnaise cream
That was so greasy, sucky is my dream.

Happy Birthday Vaish!
:)

The second Creation and its Beginning...

www.preythepredators.blogspot.com

The 2nd blog by Yours Truly...
Dated 18th november 2009 ..
Timed 4:15 pm
2 days after the birth of Yours Truly 18 years ago.